About Me

I like to stare at the stars and when I'm feeling adventurous, into the sun. I'm a bit silly and somewhat scattered. Give me a time machine and I'd have dinner with Jesus and John Lennon. And when life gives me lemons, I run, because I hate fruit pies! But what is it that makes me extraordinary, wonderfully and fearfully made? I don't know, but I want to the One who does. Will you come?

YOBcast Episode 014: Emotional Dependency, Part 2
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YOBcast Episode 014: Emotional Dependency, Part 2

How do we endure the weightiness of emotional dependency, and how do we move beyond our emotional dependency? The conversation continues in the second part of this two-part episode on emotional dependency, featuring Tom, Elliott, Marshall, Corey, and Bradley. In this episode, Tom, Elliott, and Marshall share their personal stories of emotional dependency, and we discuss […]

YOBcast Episode 013: Emotional Dependency, Part 1
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YOBcast Episode 013: Emotional Dependency, Part 1

What is emotional dependency? How do we avoid falling emotionally dependent on another man for our survival, and how do we recover when we cross that line? It’s the first in a two-part episode on emotional dependency — or “emodep,” as we so lovingly call it. Join Tom and Elliott along with Corey, Marshall, and […]

Why I Used to Hate Sports
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Why I Used to Hate Sports

I fully expect a mob of YOBBERS to tie me to the whipping post when I say this, but I love sports and I love competition. I love the push, the struggle, the fight toward victory. I love the way my chest burns when I am on the brink of exhaustion and the tiny voice […]

Who Will Teach Us Masculinity?
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Who Will Teach Us Masculinity?

The following exchange comes directly from a recent text conversation between Elliott Gladwin and Bradley Alexander: what is masculinity, and who will teach us masculinity? Elliott: I tend to “love” attractive guys more than ugly ones. I sort of play this unspoken game where I try to manipulate them to love me. Bradley: How do you go […]

I Still Don’t Know Who I Am
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I Still Don’t Know Who I Am

Still faking. Still hiding. I am a projection. A mirage. I hide behind desperate attempts at normalcy, clenching onto a twisted sense of inclusion. I have been doing this my entire life, suppressing who I was or who I could become so that I would be more acceptable. So, as it turns out, I still don’t […]

When a Rock Star Comes Out Gay Christian
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When a Rock Star Comes Out Gay Christian

Last week, the Internet (or at least Christianized corners of the Internet) went abuzz over the lead singer of a Christian rock band coming out as gay. Trey Pearson is his name, and he fronts Everyday Sunday, a successful group of the last two decades. You can read the full article of Trey Pearson’s coming out here, including chunks […]

Fighting to be Straight
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Fighting to be Straight

I was somewhere in between being who they needed me to be and who I was; what made them comfortable and what made me feel loved. For as long as I can remember, I was caught in this tug-of-war. The tension, the pain in all of this did not come from what was real, but […]

I’m a Real Boy
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I’m a Real Boy

Dad: “Is there something you want to tell me?” Me: “No.” Dad: “I’ve been noticing that you’ve been acting like you’re gay and spending a lot of time with that boy.” Me: Drops dead. Normally when these confrontations have happened, battle flags would be flying high and words shot like arrows would be aimed at […]

Casualty of Brokenness
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Casualty of Brokenness

There was some satisfaction in being the resilient one — that against all odds, I was forging my own path. Honestly, it’s the only thing that I remember receiving praise for. But whatever satisfaction I did have, it was fleeting and I had grown tired of doing this on my own. The independent spirit did not come without cost, […]

The Shadow of the Son I Should Have Been
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The Shadow of the Son I Should Have Been

It is December and the holidays are here, which means I have to pretend to love my family. While I love my family in unspoken ways, it is the tangible that remains to be seen — hugs, warm smiles, and the secret handshake that father and son share. It is the holiday season that reminds […]