About Me

I'm a full blood Native American living in New Mexico (Yes, in the United States) who deals with Same-Sex Attractions on a regular basis. For those who are interested in my Meyer-Briggs test, I'm a ETSJ and Enneagram 8 (which I think they're dumb, but I guess other people like them, oh well!) I'm a very blunt person, and very sarcastic, which both gets me into trouble sometimes. I'm very involved in ministry in the area where I live, but do have time to have awesome conversations with different people.

How I write is basically having a one-on-one conversation: you are my audience, and I'm telling you my story. You'll be hearing how I grew up, things I've gone through, and stuff that's on my mind. My policy is being transparent with you guys, and being prepared for different trails that are yet to come. I'm here to challenge you to dive deeper in your faith with God, and to show that's it's ok to love people who have a different mindset than you. Hope you're ready!

Growing Up as a Pastor’s Kid with SSA
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Growing Up as a Pastor’s Kid with SSA

Childhood plays a very significant part in our lives. How we’re raised defines us in adulthood, paving the way toward how we interact with people: family, friends, churches, co-workers, or strangers. Father figures especially shaped our lives. Truth be told, none of us had a perfect father growing up. Some of us grew up in […]

My Passion Comes from Pain
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My Passion Comes from Pain

If you hang out with me long enough, I hope you’ll see this passion or drive for my Christian faith. I’d say I’ve had this passion for a long time. My church friends have seen this firsthand, as well as my gay friends! I can also sense it myself whenever I’m at my small group or Bible […]

YOBcast Episode 010: Hookups & Gay Sex
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YOBcast Episode 010: Hookups & Gay Sex

Why do we hook up with other men? What draws us to cross that line? And what happens in the aftermath of gay sex? Tom, Elliott, and Matt come together for a vulnerable conversation on their varied experiences in hookup culture. This episode cuts deep. If you enjoy our show and haven’t yet done so, […]

I Know I’m A Hypocrite
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I Know I’m A Hypocrite

A few weeks ago, I made a friend at a coffee shop down the road. He’s a gay guy I’d gotten acquainted with through social media, and he got ahold of me because he wanted to know more about me and my faith. You see, where I live, we kinda have a small LGBT community, […]

6 Reasons You Need a Community
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6 Reasons You Need a Community

In my last post, I talked about the drawbacks of my not having a community; in this post, I”ll be discussing why it’s important for you to have a community. The thought of community kept popping into my head. I always loved being part of a group of friends with whom you can just be yourself and […]

Why I Need a Community
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Why I Need a Community

The other day, I was coming back home from a men’s Bible study that I started attending this month. I love attending Bible studies around my city — whether it be from my church or a neighboring church. I get excited to sit down with a group of people, hang out, and discuss different books of the […]

I Crashed and Burned
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I Crashed and Burned

After enduring all the stuff with my church, I was ready to call it quits. Looking back now, I kind of did! After being told I couldn’t attend a ministry school or be a leader and stay away from the youth — twice! — I was deeply hurt. It seemed that if someone else who’d […]

The Day I Left My Church
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The Day I Left My Church

A few weeks after being banned from the youth ministry, I felt like all the walls were closing in on me with no way out. I couldn’t pursue becoming a pastor or a counselor, and I couldn’t be a leader at my college Bible study. I couldn’t attend SOM to further my knowledge of the Bible, and I was told […]

Banned from Youth Ministry
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Banned from Youth Ministry

Back before my whole church ordeal started, before being told I couldn’t lead in any ministry, I was already heavily involved in my church. I took part in the college-age ministry, I attended the main church campus for awesome Bible teaching, and I served the best way I could in whatever area needed. A few weeks before I applied for SOM and leadership for […]

Why I Can’t be a Church Leader
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Why I Can’t be a Church Leader

A few weeks passed after my church incident, and I still could not process what had happened! The anger inside me started to swell up. I would cry every now and then, thinking about how I’d lost my chance to do something great for God. It had been my dream to enter SOM and go on to Bible college and […]