Male Nudity Will Fix Me
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Male Nudity Will Fix Me

I’ve written about my childhood fascination with nudity and how it led me into the nudist world, making me act out my sexual insecurities. I’d go even deeper into the world of nudism, thinking it’d be the solution to my problems. While I did have a strongly sexual fascination with male nudity, I figured it […]

What Every SSA Guy Needs
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What Every SSA Guy Needs

His question was an honest one. No ill intentions, no wild presuppositions. Simply put: a curiosity stemming from lack of education. More in passing than direct, a side statement within a side statement. But it was still a question. And it had to be answered. Why do SSA guys need strong male friendships? My friend Mick […]

Questioning My Friend’s Sexuality
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Questioning My Friend’s Sexuality

This is my third post featuring the wild ride of my friendship with Jake. Check out Part 1 and Part 2. After Jake started trusting me, he opened up and shared his inner thoughts and difficult past experiences. I began to wonder if he was same-sex attracted when he talked about not having a girlfriend. […]

When the Attractive Cashier is More Than an Attractive Cashier
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When the Attractive Cashier is More Than an Attractive Cashier

I’ve started fixating on an attractive cashier at a local grocery store. He’s the first thing I look for when the doors whoosh open. My heart drops if I don’t see him, and it drops even further when I do. I talk about A.C. often. I bring him up with my roommates, and I mention him to […]

My Friend’s Baggage Affects Me
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My Friend’s Baggage Affects Me

This is the second post featuring my rocky friendship with Jake; check out Part 1. After I let Jake sleep on my couch for a few days, he went back to his parents’ house. We remained in contact. I knew he was trouble, but I saw something in him that made me want to befriend […]

Living (and Dying) in Community
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Living (and Dying) in Community

There are people in my life I don’t like very much. I don’t like talking to them and I don’t like spending much time with them. They wear on me. Our personalities clash. Christians often avoid admitting disliking anyone, especially in their community, but let’s be real here: some people drive us crazy. I don’t always […]

When Friendships Come and Go
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When Friendships Come and Go

As they mature, infants and toddlers begin to understand two things: just because something cannot be seen or experienced does not mean it has ceased to exist, and key people in their lives will eventually return. I, on the other hand, have not come to this understanding, especially regarding friendships. For me, friendships are like […]

My Greatest Fear in Coming Out
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My Greatest Fear in Coming Out

I’m so tired of it all: living two lives isn’t something I can maintain while also living a thriving life. Picking and choosing what I do and what I talk about whether I’m “out” to the person I’m with is terribly exhausting. My last post spoke of a time I overcame my fear and opened up […]

Replacing My Best Friend
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Replacing My Best Friend

I stood at the back of the room, mulling over the past year. Twelve months ago, I was still getting to know this guy; heck, eighteen months ago, I didn’t even know he existed. Now, I’m supporting Carver in a performance like a proud friend. Almost like a best friend. My other friend, John, has similarities […]

My Struggles Like Substance Abuse
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My Struggles Like Substance Abuse

I remember the first time I saw Jake at my front door. I’d gotten a call from a high school student I had tutored, and that student had sent him to me because Jake was 18 and his parents had just thrown him out of the house. He thought I might give Jake a place […]