I’ve written about my love for the Band of Brothers miniseries — how it profoundly moved me and impacted my views on male friendship and brotherhood. There is, however, a movie that’s moved me even more to my core: the 1986 Ron Reiner classic, Stand By Me.

Stand By Me is one of the few, if only, movies I’ve seen that takes relationships between males seriously. Most movies seem to treat such relationships as a joke, tongue-in-cheek, or just as a ploy for the main male character to get laid by a woman.

Sometimes you get the sense that a movie might actually be going somewhere by showing what seems like a deep male friendship, but then it winks at the audience like: Yeah, they’re close, but not THAT close, know what I mean? D’ohohoho, we’re so clever.

Stand By Me, however, takes the time to analyze and display such relationships with real, raw, emotional intimacy — made even more poignant since the main characters are preteen boys who have yet to experience any social inhibitions limiting the potential of their relationships.

So, what’s the story? A young 12-year-old boy named Gordie Lachance, played by Wil Wheaton, lives in an idyllic 1950’s small town in Maine (a giveaway that, yes, this movie is based on a Stephen King novel). Gordie is friends with several local boys who include Teddy Duchamp (Corey Feldman), Vern Tessio (Jerry O’Connell), and his best friend, Chris Chambers (River Phoenix).

The boys hear a report of a kid who was hit and killed by a train and that the body’s location hasn’t yet been found by authorities. So, they set out on an adventure through the wilderness to find the body and be rewarded as heroes for their efforts. They experience various misadventures along this journey of self-discovery, learning the true nature of friendship while avoiding some bullies who intend to find the body first.

Boy is it an emotional rollercoaster.

The whole story is told via flashback, written by a grown up version of Gordie. At the end of the film, he stares at his finished draft on his computer and writes:

“I never had any friends later on like the ones I did when I was twelve. Jesus, does anyone?”

Well . . . not me. I sort of had a couple of friends when I was twelve. The one boy I occasionally hung out with was an obnoxious fat kid obsessed with video games and farts. We spent most of our time together in his computer room just playing video games and, sadly, not much more apart from that.

Stand By Me makes me pine for what I wish I could have had in my childhood but also makes me grateful for the friendships I have now as an adult.

So, where to begin with this movie? Honestly, there’s a lot.

Stand By Me‘s focus is the relationships among the four boys. They all come from broken families and bond together to form their own family.

Gordie’s dead older brother has caused his parents to ignore him.

Teddy has an abusive, crazy father who nearly burned his ear off on a stove.

Vern has a violent older brother.

And Chris comes from a violent redneck family.

The heartbeat of Stand By Me, though, is the relationship between Chris and Gordie who share several intimate moments together.

Gordie was very close with his older brother, and his loss was a major one. Chris becomes something of a surrogate brother for Gordie.

Now, this brotherly bond isn’t quite ideal for a sensitive romantic like me, as the two boys often make crude comments to each other, smoke, and try to beat each other up after some disagreements.

And yet despite all that, their love for each other resonates with me so deeply.

To further demonstrate why I love Stand By Me, I want to discuss three scenes in detail. They are somewhat spoilery, so beware if you haven’t yet seen the movie.

The first scene is a flashback of Gordie with his older brother, Dennis, when he was still alive — a brief, simple scene that says so much about their relationship. It moved me on a level different from the other scenes because watching it made me feel like I was watching the ghost of something I’ve never had and have deeply longed for.

It turns out Gordie has a talent for writing stories that Dennis seemed to appreciate and encourage in him while his parents didn’t care. The only other person in the movie who seems to nurture Gordie’s writing talent are his three friends — and especially his best friend, Chris.

In this second scene, the four boys venture further down the railroad tracks to find the dead body, and their goofy, wannabe macho exteriors start to erode. They begin to talk vulnerably with each other for the first time.

Just a fair warning: this clip contains some language.

It’s such a poignant line, Chris passing on some spiritual wisdom to Gordie:

“It’s like God gave you something, man. All those stories you can make up. And He said this is what we got for you, kid. Try not to lose it.”

I only wish I’d had a friend who could talk to me like that at his age. Someone to confirm my gifts are from God and that I should nourish them.

Sure, I got plenty of comments from adults about my artistry, but never that much from my peers. A YouTube comment on this clip reads: “If you have a friend who talks to you like this, then you really have a friend.”

Lastly, there is this scene:

Oh this scene . . . gosh this scene!

It cuts to my heart’s longings for male relationships for all my life. A longing that doesn’t have lust or homoeroticism at the center of it. A longing to let down all emotional guards and unleash full-blown emotional vulnerability with another loving brother.

I’m sure crying to a woman has its benefits as well, but it wouldn’t be quite the same as with a man. Growing up, I was told all men were to “suck it up” if they felt like crying. And God help you if you were seen by other men crying.

Before I saw Stand By Me, I often pondered if my longing for emotional, intimate relationships with other men was a need inherent in all men or if it was just the same-sex attraction in me doing all the talking.

Stand By Me seems to prove that intimacy with fellow males is, in fact, a very real thing. Especially since the relationships in this story were based on Stephen King’s and Rob Reiner’s own childhood friendships.

These types of relationships were indeed a thing in the past even if they’re sadly not as common now.
I once didn’t know men of any age were even capable of such relationships with other men. This movie gave me that new perspective.

There was a time when I was inspired to write or make movies and stories just like Stand By Me. I would show our homophobic society that relationships like the ones in this movie can be wonderful and should be celebrated.

Unfortunately, I think our society would say, “You’re just promoting this crap because you’re gay and it turns you on. Nothing more.”

Ultimately, I recommend all men watch Stand By Me, gay and straight alike. Both sides can see the possibility and reality of brotherhood and friendship, how platonic relationships can sometimes be as fulfilling and deep as romantic ones.

It’s not something we often see in this day and age, but it really rings a timeless message.

Have you seen Stand By Me? Did it move you as well? What other shows or movies depict similarly raw and intimate male relationships?

  • Stand by Me sounds really good. I haven’t seen it yet. I actually confused it with Lean on Me about the Jersey teacher. Tbh, the only thing I’ve seen that comes to mind is Frodo and Sam from the Lord of the Rings movies.
    I can’t add anything about Stand by Me but just wanna acknowledge your efforts in putting the post together. You should write the stories and make the movies and create your art. And if you get to the truth of what’s real and good about deep friendship, don’t worry about how it’s received.

    • Yeah I think Lord of the Rings is also one of the few movies to portray friendship in such a way too. Although of course their friendship isn’t the main focus of the story while friendship is the focus of Stand By Me. But yes, please see if you can see it while you can! And yeah, I do want to create art that has themes of close intimate male friendships. I guess I just worry about that aspect of people not taking it seriously because of judgments on me. Its hard to make art about male intimacy without the Freudian critics labeling it to death as homoerotic.

      • You’re really talented as an artist Eugene. I get the worry about your work not being taken seriously, but works of art sometimes take on a life of their own. The truth they reveal is no longer the artist’s alone.
        YOB is dedicated to the idea that male intimacy is good apart from being erotic. Your art can help others see that. It can’t be that’s only possible thru straight artists. Who knows man, with the talent you’ve been given, maybe one of your purposes in life is to help others see.

        • Thank you very much my friend. It means a lot when people tell me that my art is affective. I’ve had people in the professional art world tell me my work isn’t good. I guess in the years of deep thought and coming to grips with my sexuality, it has opened a lot of questions. Like does it really take gay men to remind the world of the joys of male intimacy? Does platonic male intimacy only exist in the Side B world, and straight men just naturally not inclined to such things? Or is it all just societal views? Lots of questions I feel like I am exploring in my art work.

          • It’s just a hunch but I think straight guys can over fear it as much as we can over desire it. Somewhere in between, life is good.

  • Yeah it is a sad sobering feeling. How I do wish I had something like that at that age. And yet it was a bunch of years of nothingness relationally. Thing is, underneath any of my strong sexual feelings of attraction to men, that feeling of just wanting platonic male buddies and having it at that age just pulls at me so strongly. I’ve heard some Side A guys say the same thing. Even if I ever did become Side A I know the longing will still haunt me. And I will say its a stronger feeling than any sexual arousal.
    Thank you Mike, I know there are hundreds if not thousands of Christian men out there hiding their sexualities in fear. I’m hoping more of them reach out to us too.

    • Very true Mike. Back in the day when I more closely followed Ex Gay line of thought I had an extra element of grief that thinking that my lack of friendships at the age caused my SSA. Nowadays I don’t prescribe to that way of thinking anymore, but I still have that longing for friendships. In fact, I wish I had friendships like that in the years before I became 27 when I found the YOB community. Causing my sexuality or not, I feel like I would be an emotionally healthier and more rounded person had I had such emotional support at that young age. My years in YOB are the only times in my life that I have had many strong relationships. I feel like I’m going through a lot of stuff emotionally I feel like I should’ve gone through in middle school. And I’m 30 now!

      • Oof, I can relate with that closing statement. Going through stuff in my thirties that I “should” have experienced as a teen. Relational drama, my emotions, etc. Grateful for this space (and counseling, other outlets) to process. Better late than never?

        • Yeah I guess its better late than never. Its weird, growing up people kept telling me how crazy my teen and high school years would be and for me those years were pretty bland. Nothing really happened. Now a lot is happening. So it is really weird.

  • I also love “Stand by Me” and have watched it several times. I did have 2 friends like that in high school and college. We did love each other, not in a romantic sense, but in a sense of deep friendship among brothers in Christ. We could be real, talk about anything (I thought-except for my SSA) and I still have a deep bond with each of them to this date. I know they would hop on a plane immediately if I called. Could I tell them I have SSA? I think I could, but why? They would still love me, I am sure, just as my wife now knows about my issue and for some reason I think she loves me even more because I suffered in silence for so many years. Do I long today for vulnerable male relationships like those young guys had? Sure, and my men’s group fulfills part of that for me, but I don’t have a male friend I would be comfortable crying in front of. My wife, yes, and she loves my tears. Thanks for the review and insight into the friendships and vulnerability portrayed in this movie, I never connected the dots like you did!

  • I vividly remember DVR’ing this movie at 19 or 20 and watching it late one night while the rest of my family slept. It was recommended to me by an online friend, a straight guy who loved it. Speaks a lot to male longings across the board, I think. Haven’t ever rewatched it. I’m sure I’d weep if I did.

  • I’m ashamed I had not heard of this movie until now. However…I just watched the movie “Call Me By My Name” which is the story of two guys who happen to meet in Italy in the summer of 1983. Fortunately, I could watch it for free on YT. It’s a powerful story about friendship, affection, goodbyes at the end of the summer….the train scene when the train takes one away is a tear jerker. Timothee Chalamet does a great job acting in the movie!

  • Stand by Me is one of my favorite movies. I’m often emotional throughout the movie. The latter part of the movie saddens me as Gordie explains when they grew older, they all kinda went their separate ways (Which happens in life). It make’s me reflect on my friendships at the age. I am friends on Social Media with a few childhood friends, but it’s not really the same…

  • That movie is a gem. I watched it for the first time last year and it about ripped my heart out. The scene where Chris is wrestling with and angry about the expectations people have of him and wants to run away….man. Yet you see his real heart in the two scenes you post above of him and Gordie. It brings out such an intense longing for deep, vulnerable, real same-sex friendships.

  • Eugene Heffron

    I’m a 30-something still trying to find my way in the world. Lover of all things creative, I am a drawer with an intuitive mind while also a deep thinker. I can be a person of extreme opposites: one moment a lone wolf, the next a social butterfly; one moment joyful and optimistic, yet sad and melancholic the next. As I came to terms with my SSA I met fellow SSA Christians and formed deep, intimate bonds. I’ve always longed for brotherhood and, at last, I have found it after years of social isolation. I am glad to be part of this community of bloggers and share my stories and struggles, joys and sorrows, dreams and longings.

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