About The Author

Dean Samuels

I do my best to pursue Jesus Christ every day. I fail often, yet I get back up each time. I am married to an incredible woman I call Lisa -- she is far better than I deserve. My daughter is one of the greatest joys of my life. And in my spare time, I watch my favorite TV shows and movies, play RPG video games, and hang out with my friends. Yes, I am a nerd and I am proud of it.

Am I Still Attracted to Men?

People who do know me, who do know my past, do they still question my attractions? Honestly, I kind of want people to ask me if I’m still attracted to men.

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YOBcast Episode 025: Best Friends

Tom and Elliott welcome back Tom’s younger brother, Andy, for his second YOBcast appearance. Also appearing for his second show is Dean, one of our authors who also happens to be Andy’s best friend. We talk about their relationship as best friends and what having a best friend means to all of us.

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Happiness for My New Friend Before He Moves Away

“I can’t believe it’s your final day, man.” This was it for my friend, Henry, working at our church. The four weeks since our conversation had passed way too quickly. Henry turned his chair to me, leaned back as he always does, and sighed. I couldn’t tell if it was a sigh of relief or a sigh […]

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Maybe God Brought Me Here Just to Meet You

“Maybe God brought me here just to meet you,” my new friend, Henry, said plainly. “I mean, it’s probably not just for that reason, but who knows?” ~ ~ ~ My coworker, Garth, came back into the office and sat on the couch across from me with Henry in the room. “Hey, Henry, anything exciting happen over […]

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My New Friend Didn’t Tell Me He’s Moving Away

“Any idea when he’s moving?” My church coworker and friend, Garth, thought I knew the answer to the question. He actually thought I was aware of the move. He’d thought Henry had told me he was moving away. I barely contained my emotions as I responded back, “What?” It was perhaps more forceful than warranted. […]

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Permission to Read Our Stories

I don’t know that I have permission to read these stories. My new friend, Henry, said as a puzzled look hit my face. He must have noticed, because he scratched his chin as he leaned back to consider it. I followed suit, ruminating further. “It’s so personal,” Henry continued. “And I guess I just don’t […]

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I Don’t Want My New Friend to Leave Me

I met my new friend, Henry, about a year ago. Great guy, my age, married with a daughter slightly older than mine — he was literally another me as far as life situations go. My prayer for connection with someone in my exact life state was placed on a silver platter in my church. In […]

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YOBcast Episode 019: 1-Year Podcast Anniversary!

It’s hard to believe the YOBcast has now existed for an entire year! In this special anniversary episode, Tom and Elliott and six additional blogging brothers unite for a fun hour of reminiscing over the last year and ponder the age-old question: if you could push a big red button and erase your homosexuality, would you […]

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My Church Supports My True Calling

Moments shape our lives. Stephen Sondheim wrote in his show, Into the Woods: Oh, if life were made of moments Even now and then a bad one! But if life were only moments Then you’d never know you had one. My life has had some incredible moments. The moment I met my wife. The moment my daughter […]

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