childhood

I Used to Hate Gay People
I Used to Hate Gay People
I couldn't be like these people. They seemed like the antithesis of everything I stood for. Finding out that the Bible forbade homosexual sex only fueled my self-righteous anger. To assert my masculinity and avoid being labeled gay at all costs, I joined my other straight male classmates in mocking gay people.
How My Porn Addiction Began
How My Porn Addiction Began
What started that night was three years of an unchecked porn addiction. I never felt guilty. I don't know why. Perhaps because I felt like I wasn't hurting anyone?
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I Want My Pastor to Touch Me
I felt comforted. Assured. Confident. My pastor's hand on my shoulder gave me a shot of strength.
Starting My Teenage Double Life
Starting My Teenage Double Life
As my childhood entered a big transition phase, I started dealing with it through unhealthy self-reliance. This created a sort of double life.
Fully Known and Fully Loved
Fully Known and Fully Loved
God has promised to never leave me or forsake me. He promised that my hope in Him will never put me to shame. I am fully known and fully loved.
When Self-Reliance Was My Norm
When Self-Reliance Was My Norm
I was honestly lonely then, but I pretended like I wasn't. Self-reliance unconsciously became my norm.
Discovering the Heart of My Nudist Desires
Discovering the Heart of My Nudist Desires
My nudist desires have never been entirely sexual. I've long known that it comes from a deep desire for intimacy. To be known fully as a man by other men.
Avoiding the Mistakes of My Parents
Avoiding the Mistakes of my Parents
I know the mistakes of a parent can have incredibly long-lasting ramifications on a child's life. I still struggle to this day due to things my parents did.
When the Attractive Cashier is More than an Attractive Cashier
When the Attractive Cashier is More Than an Attractive Cashier
He's an attractive cashier but he's more than just an attractive cashier. This attractive cashier personifies much of my struggle for the past 20 years.
My Complicated Relationship with Nudity
My Complicated Relationship with Nudity
I've never much desired sexual intercourse with men. Throughout my life, however, my erotic thoughts and desires have centered almost entirely on nudity.
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