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Running from the Call to Come Out
Running from the Call to Come Out
When the call came, it wasn't that I couldn't hear it; it was that I had no interest in obeying. For Jonah, that call was Nineveh. For me? It was coming out. My "solution" for my sexuality was quite simple: I'd tell no one, become straight, and then move on with my life. A secret I'd die keeping rather than ever share; I could hardly admit it to myself, let alone another
Wounded Sparrow Seeking Home: Intro to a Queer, Married Pastor
Wounded Sparrow Seeking Home: Intro to a Queer, Married Pastor
I like men in more than just a friendly way. I am a man who is attracted emotionally and sexually to other men. I am also married to a woman, attracted only to her out of all the women on earth. Somehow, it works. I am queer. And for much of my life, that has terrified
Navigating Faith, Homosexuality, and Masculinity. On Easter.
Navigating Faith, Homosexuality, and Masculinity. On Easter.
It's Easter season, and I've been reflecting on the meaning of the cross. Not just the meaning of the cross for the bigger picture of salvation for humanity, but also the tangible effects the cross has been having on
The Answer to My Own Prayers
The Answer to My Own Prayers
What would it look like for my distant tribe to be gathered together? Didn't God long to change our shame into praise and renown? "Gather us," I prayed. I prayed that my scattered and lost tribe would be drawn together, our fortunes restored before our eyes. It was a prayer for my own benefit, but also for all of
Fully Known and Fully Loved
Fully Known and Fully Loved
God has promised to never leave me or forsake me. He promised that my hope in Him will never put me to shame. I am fully known and fully
Losing the Greatest Community of My Life
Losing the Greatest Community of My Life
It was an SSA guy’s dream, being close friends with ten straight guys. We had our ups and downs, but our community shared a deep
My Complicated Relationship with Nudity
My Complicated Relationship with Nudity
I've never much desired sexual intercourse with men. Throughout my life, however, my erotic thoughts and desires have centered almost entirely on
We All Have a Story to Tell
We All Have a Story to Tell
These words served as a reminder that my story is worth telling and sharing. And equally as important, truth needs to be
Overcoming My Fear of Coming Out
Overcoming My Fear of Coming Out
I still get tense and nervous and start shaking just thinking about coming out again. Some days it's better; other days it's
Discovering Homosexuality
Discovering Homosexuality
Looking back, I know I was experiencing same-sex attraction at that age, even though I didn't know what SSA or homosexuality was at the
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