introductions

Coming Out to My Parents as a Teenager
Coming Out to My Parents as a Teenager
A few days prior, I had sent my dad an email explaining that I was gay. I can't remember what all I said or how I said it, but looking back, that probably wasn't the best way to go about it. I was just too afraid to bring it up face to face; an email was easy to send. Hitting send on that coming out email to my dad felt like being pushed out of a plane: there was no turning back, and the parachute better well
How I Lost My Best Friend to Sex
How I Lost My Best Friend to Sex
My pursuit has not been one of sex, though it wormed its way into my story and convinced me otherwise. My longing has been for the genuine, reciprocated love of a man. A man to hold and be held by, a man to weep with, laugh with, live with. A covenant companion. I once thought such a thing was outside God's plan; praise God it
Running from the Call to Come Out
Running from the Call to Come Out
When the call came, it wasn't that I couldn't hear it; it was that I had no interest in obeying. For Jonah, that call was Nineveh. For me? It was coming out. My "solution" for my sexuality was quite simple: I'd tell no one, become straight, and then move on with my life. A secret I'd die keeping rather than ever share; I could hardly admit it to myself, let alone another
Wounded Sparrow Seeking Home: Intro to a Queer, Married Pastor
Wounded Sparrow Seeking Home: Intro to a Queer, Married Pastor
I like men in more than just a friendly way. I am a man who is attracted emotionally and sexually to other men. I am also married to a woman, attracted only to her out of all the women on earth. Somehow, it works. I am queer. And for much of my life, that has terrified
Navigating Faith, Homosexuality, and Masculinity. On Easter.
Navigating Faith, Homosexuality, and Masculinity. On Easter.
It's Easter season, and I've been reflecting on the meaning of the cross. Not just the meaning of the cross for the bigger picture of salvation for humanity, but also the tangible effects the cross has been having on
The Answer to My Own Prayers
The Answer to My Own Prayers
What would it look like for my distant tribe to be gathered together? Didn't God long to change our shame into praise and renown? "Gather us," I prayed. I prayed that my scattered and lost tribe would be drawn together, our fortunes restored before our eyes. It was a prayer for my own benefit, but also for all of
Fully Known and Fully Loved
Fully Known and Fully Loved
God has promised to never leave me or forsake me. He promised that my hope in Him will never put me to shame. I am fully known and fully
Losing the Greatest Community of My Life
Losing the Greatest Community of My Life
It was an SSA guy’s dream, being close friends with ten straight guys. We had our ups and downs, but our community shared a deep
My Complicated Relationship with Nudity
My Complicated Relationship with Nudity
I've never much desired sexual intercourse with men. Throughout my life, however, my erotic thoughts and desires have centered almost entirely on
We All Have a Story to Tell
We All Have a Story to Tell
These words served as a reminder that my story is worth telling and sharing. And equally as important, truth needs to be