I Am an Unlovable Vampire
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I Am an Unlovable Vampire

I lurk among the shadows contemplating my existence. This castle is old, the walls creaking and groaning with the battering of the howling wind. The only soul within this castle is me, and I’d rather it be that way, for I’d rather be alone with my thoughts. Yet at the same time, I don’t want […]

The Thing I Learned from My Friend’s Addiction
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The Thing I Learned from My Friend’s Addiction

This is the fourth part in the story of my eventful and often strange friendship with Jake. You can read Part 1, Part 2, and Part 3. As soon as I met Jake, I saw that he had issues with drug and alcohol addiction. I knew his addiction could get worse, but I had no idea […]

How to Handle Male Rejection
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How to Handle Male Rejection

I may have mentioned once or twice (okay, so in a five-part series) that I’ve long had a thing with nudity. It’s been a long and complicated relationship with nudity, and it’s led to some more painful areas. I was living far away from home in another state working a temporary job. It was late spring, […]

My New Friend Didn’t Tell Me He’s Moving Away
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My New Friend Didn’t Tell Me He’s Moving Away

“Any idea when he’s moving?” My church coworker and friend, Garth, thought I knew the answer to the question. He actually thought I was aware of the move. He’d thought Henry had told me he was moving away. I barely contained my emotions as I responded back, “What?” It was perhaps more forceful than warranted. […]

When I Discovered the Korean Spa
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When I Discovered the Korean Spa

In my previous blogs, I’ve written about how my same-sex attraction (SSA) brought about an obsession with nudity, leading me down nudism paths which ultimately led me down many unhealthy paths. Would this odd obsession with nudity lead me anywhere worthwhile? After finding that most nudists I met online were flakey or only interested in […]

I Wanted a Brother at the Nudist Resort
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I Wanted a Brother at the Nudist Resort

After years of trying to find guys in my area with whom I could be naked and vulnerable, I moved to a new city for a temporary job. Luckily for me, I learned this new city had a lot more nudists — and not just nudists, but nudist resorts and beaches galore! I thought I’d […]

Losing the Greatest Community of My Life
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Losing the Greatest Community of My Life

Two years ago, I moved away from an incredibly close community of guys. I first met these guys during my first year of Bible college. We all lived in the same dorm, and we grew incredibly close. I disclosed my attraction to the same sex to all of them just a month or two into […]

Finding Freedom on Father’s Day
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Finding Freedom on Father’s Day

What a way to start my Father’s Day. I mean, I can think of worse ways. Balloons could have gotten caught in the ceiling fan above my bed and mimicked the sounds of machine guns as they whirled around wildly. However, I can’t say that this text lay too far ahead in the lineup. As […]

Male Nudity Will Fix Me
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Male Nudity Will Fix Me

I’ve written about my childhood fascination with nudity and how it led me into the nudist world, making me act out my sexual insecurities. I’d go even deeper into the world of nudism, thinking it’d be the solution to my problems. While I did have a strongly sexual fascination with male nudity, I figured it […]

Living (and Dying) in Community
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Living (and Dying) in Community

There are people in my life I don’t like very much. I don’t like talking to them and I don’t like spending much time with them. They wear on me. Our personalities clash. Christians often avoid admitting disliking anyone, especially in their community, but let’s be real here: some people drive us crazy. I don’t always […]