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When Male Friendship Dies
When Male Friendship Dies
Even with a better understanding of my SSA, he just couldn't take daily contact with me anymore. So, he told me he was moving out.
My Passion Comes from Pain
My Passion Comes from Pain
I know what it's like to hurt, to have nowhere to go. This is why I keep ministering to people who need to hear that Jesus loves them.
Losing My Sexual Sobriety
Losing My Sexual Sobriety
I lost my sexual sobriety because I went in search of shortcuts to intimacy with other men. I knew it wouldn't satisfy. Just like all the other times.
The Day I Left my Church
The Day I Left My Church
I did my best not to break down, but I could feel the tears falling down my face. I sucked it up, took a deep breath, and walked out of the church.
How a Prodigal Son Changed the Story
How a Prodigal Son Changed the Story
Remembering the way his parents had taught him to follow Jesus Christ, he had a prodigal son moment and spent over an hour crying to God for forgiveness.
On Being Banned from Youth Ministry
Banned from Youth Ministry
I was told I couldn't serve in various areas of ministry, including the youth ministry and being around the younger children at the church.
You are a Man and You are Awesome
You Are a Man and You are Awesome
I had no idea how desperately I'd needed some guy — even some unknowable guy on the Internet — to tell me that I'm awesome.
Why I Can't be a Church Leader
Why I Can’t be a Church Leader
Before I applied for SOM, some friends were talking to me about becoming a Bible study leader. I grew thrilled at the idea of leading and serving there.
I Still Don't Know Who I Am
I Still Don’t Know Who I Am
So, as it turns out, I still don't know who I am. And with two decades now under my belt, I have come to the conclusion that I don't know who I want to be.
The Death of Hate and the Orlando Shooting
The Death of Hate and the Orlando Shooting
Hate didn't die in the Orlando shooting -- no, sadly, hate will still continue to breed and spread beyond the Orlando shooting.
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