Lifestories

Learning to Worship God, not Guys
Learning to Worship God, Not Guys
I got more involved in a small group as others would worship God. There was an amazing sense of community. I knew I was not alone in my Christian life!
Redefining My Best Friend
Redefining My Best Friend
I was the problem in this friendship. I refused to let him be anything less than my absolute closest friend. And I said I was sorry.
Who's in Your Deep Dark Secret Club?
Who’s in Your Deep Dark Secret Club?
Back when I was blogging anonymously about same-sex attraction and other struggles, I coined my own term: my Deep Dark Secret Club. They knew everything.
Brokenness
Casualty of Brokenness
I don't remember thinking of myself as gay. There was always something wrong with me, and I was beginning to see it.
Gay Sex or Jesus Christ?
Gay Sex or Jesus Christ?
I saw I was faced with a stark choice: it was gay sex or Jesus Christ, a relationship with one or the other, but not both. 
The Gender I Was Made to Be
The Gender I Was Made to Be
As a man who strongly considered becoming a woman, I have a unique gender perspective that most Christians cannot fathom. Still, I wanted to be a man.
The Reason Why I Love Sex
The Reason Why I Love Sex
I loved sex so much and didn't want to stop because I found out I could do it. Once I did had sex and knew I could do it anytime I wanted, I took advantage.
Best Friend Breaking Point
Best Friend Breaking Point
I processed all the outcomes and knew that ultimately nothing would change by anything I did. My breaking point with my best friend was this: I did nothing.
Overwhelmed by My First Gay Feelings
Overwhelmed by My First Gay Feelings
My middle school years were some of my most difficult times. I started noticing other guys and growing overwhelmed by my first gay feelings.
Will I Ever Not Be Afraid to Share?
Will I Ever Not Be Afraid to Share?
I wonder: Will I ever reach a point where I am no longer afraid of someone's reaction to my struggle with same-sex attraction?
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