I Am an Unlovable Vampire
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I Am an Unlovable Vampire

I lurk among the shadows contemplating my existence. This castle is old, the walls creaking and groaning with the battering of the howling wind. The only soul within this castle is me, and I’d rather it be that way, for I’d rather be alone with my thoughts. Yet at the same time, I don’t want […]

Finding Confidence Through Friendship
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Finding Confidence Through Friendship

A couple years ago, my pastor and I grabbed coffee at Starbucks. “How’s your week been?” he asked as we sat down, me with my hot green tea and him with a cup of coffee. “I’ve had a few rough days this week,” I replied hesitantly. “School is stressing me out, and figuring out my […]

I Only Watch Soft-Core Pornography
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I Only Watch Soft-Core Pornography

I never sought out pornography; it found me. With technology these days, it was practically inevitable. Even in 2006. It all started with soft-core pornography; it all ends there, too. I talked about my porn habits in our latest YOBcast episode, and I wanted to dive deeper into my pornography origin story. Particularly my fixation […]

Understanding the Male Butt Smack
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Understanding the Male Butt Smack

There we were, my friends and I, at our richest friend’s mini-mansion after church one afternoon. We were mostly college-age twenty-somethings filling up the big kitchen/living room, talking and laughing. The TV was on and snacks were on the table. It was then that I saw my chance. My friend, Bryan, stood by the island […]

How to Handle Male Rejection
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How to Handle Male Rejection

I may have mentioned once or twice (okay, so in a five-part series) that I’ve long had a thing with nudity. It’s been a long and complicated relationship with nudity, and it’s led to some more painful areas. I was living far away from home in another state working a temporary job. It was late spring, […]

YOBcast Episode 022: Living Together
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YOBcast Episode 022: Living Together

Can same-sex attracted guys live together? Is there ever any physical/sexual temptation? Aren’t there at least heavy emotional issues living in the same house? Tom, Elliott, and Bradley gather to discuss one of our most often asked questions: how do you three SSA guys live together in the same house? It’s an enlightening hour of […]

YOBcast Rehash: Manliness
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YOBcast Rehash: Manliness

Tom and Elliott return for a rehash of our manliness podcast episode! It was our most critical episode yet, and we dive into some of the criticism. Check out the comments on our podcast episode page, and don’t forget to comment on future episodes for the chance to appear in a YOBcast Rehash video! You can […]

My New Friend Didn’t Tell Me He’s Moving Away
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My New Friend Didn’t Tell Me He’s Moving Away

“Any idea when he’s moving?” My church coworker and friend, Garth, thought I knew the answer to the question. He actually thought I was aware of the move. He’d thought Henry had told me he was moving away. I barely contained my emotions as I responded back, “What?” It was perhaps more forceful than warranted. […]

When I Discovered the Korean Spa
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When I Discovered the Korean Spa

In my previous blogs, I’ve written about how my same-sex attraction (SSA) brought about an obsession with nudity, leading me down nudism paths which ultimately led me down many unhealthy paths. Would this odd obsession with nudity lead me anywhere worthwhile? After finding that most nudists I met online were flakey or only interested in […]

I Wanted a Brother at the Nudist Resort
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I Wanted a Brother at the Nudist Resort

After years of trying to find guys in my area with whom I could be naked and vulnerable, I moved to a new city for a temporary job. Luckily for me, I learned this new city had a lot more nudists — and not just nudists, but nudist resorts and beaches galore! I thought I’d […]