Before I was even dating or at all interested in my wife, I had sex with another man. I have regretted this decision every day of my life since.
I had just intercepted a "booty call" meant for my brother! There was absolutely no doubt now that Brad was having sex with other guys. What to do?
I pretended everything was normal with my gay brother and acted like I didn't notice his sexuality. I didn't want to deal with any trouble.
I saw I was faced with a stark choice: it was gay sex or Jesus Christ, a relationship with one or the other, but not both.
I loved sex so much and didn't want to stop because I found out I could do it. Once I did had sex and knew I could do it anytime I wanted, I took advantage.
My middle school years were some of my most difficult times. I started noticing other guys and growing overwhelmed by my first gay feelings.
Looking back, I know I was experiencing same-sex attraction at that age, even though I didn't know what SSA or homosexuality was at the time.
I can remember a time before sex. I wish I could forget everything about sex so I could relearn sex properly.