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Do I Still Pray the Gay Away?
Do I Still Pray the Gay Away?
When they hear I'm attracted to men but married to a woman, straight people, particularly Christians, sometimes ask if I expect my attractions to "change"...
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How I've Thrived in Intentional Community
How I’ve Thrived in Intentional Community
If there's one thing that stands out about me, it's intentional community. As a single Christian guy with same-sex attraction, I find that I fight...
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Do I Follow the God of Yes or the God of No?
Do I Follow the God of Yes or the God of No?
Right on cue, in walks that cute guy again. Instantly, I'm back to spiraling, back to wondering if this faith thing can really work out...
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Self-Hatred and the Struggles of Being Gay
Self-Hatred and the Struggles of Being Gay
As a kid, I said a lot of derogatory things about LGBTQ+ people. I cringe at the things I remember saying. When I realized I was...
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Is Being "Side B" Just Internalized Homophobia?
Is Being “Side B” Just Internalized Homophobia?
Do I live the way I live purely because of the way I was raised? Do I still harbor any internalized homophobia of myself and...
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Finding Humility Through Beauty at the YOBBERS Retreat
Finding Humility Through Beauty at the YOBBERS Retreat
Humility is not about being hard on yourself; it's about fighting the urge to stand at the center of it all. As I stood there...
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That One Summer My Friend Declared His Love for Me
That One Summer My Friend Declared His Love for Me
How was I to respond to my friend's declaration? After everything that had happened in France, I felt even more confused about relationships and sexuality....
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What I Learned from My Midlife Crisis
What I Learned from My Midlife Crisis
I reached a point of knowing I could trust God, and I was able to choose a more adventurous, challenging life to accomplish more of...
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How I'll Heal in the Next Life
How I’ll Heal in the Next Life
God and I are going to have some time alone together at the beginning of the next life. For the wounds to heal, for the...
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How God Provided in My Midlife Loneliness
How God Provided in My Midlife Loneliness
Arriving at my new house, I found no one there to greet me. I knew where my new housemates hid the key, so I let...
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