Fully Known and Fully Loved
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Fully Known and Fully Loved

I was raised in a Christian home. A home where the Word of God was honored and the Gospel of Jesus Christ was proclaimed. From a very young age, I knew that I wanted to give my life to Christ and become a follower of Jesus. My childhood was happy and incredibly blessed, but around […]

I Only Watch Soft-Core Pornography
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I Only Watch Soft-Core Pornography

I never sought out pornography; it found me. With technology these days, it was practically inevitable. Even in 2006. It all started with soft-core pornography; it all ends there, too. I talked about my porn habits in our latest YOBcast episode, and I wanted to dive deeper into my pornography origin story. Particularly my fixation […]

YOBcast Episode 023: Pornography
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YOBcast Episode 023: Pornography

What is pornography? How early did we discover pornography, how has it evolved over the generations, and how do we combat it? Tom and Elliott welcome back Marshall for a long overdue conversation on pornography — particularly gay pornography. We discuss the definition of the term, our first exposures to pornography, and what we do […]

Masturbation for the Married Guy
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Masturbation for the Married Guy

I’m thirty-three years old, I’m married, and I masturbate. I never thought I’d still be doing this as an adult. Back when I was a teenager, I had no intention of keeping this habit going so long. I believed masturbation was a sin back then, so I tried to stop. Of course, it was hard, […]

When I Discovered the Korean Spa
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When I Discovered the Korean Spa

In my previous blogs, I’ve written about how my same-sex attraction (SSA) brought about an obsession with nudity, leading me down nudism paths which ultimately led me down many unhealthy paths. Would this odd obsession with nudity lead me anywhere worthwhile? After finding that most nudists I met online were flakey or only interested in […]

Losing the Greatest Community of My Life
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Losing the Greatest Community of My Life

Two years ago, I moved away from an incredibly close community of guys. I first met these guys during my first year of Bible college. We all lived in the same dorm, and we grew incredibly close. I disclosed my attraction to the same sex to all of them just a month or two into […]

Giving My Kids the Sex Talk
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Giving My Kids the Sex Talk

Daddy, how are babies made? I was sitting on my living room floor with my three kids while my wife was out when my six-year-old daughter asked me this question. There was no real motivation for it — simply a thought that had popped into her mind. Nevertheless, I think she had been wondering about […]

Discovering the Heart of My Nudist Desires
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Discovering the Heart of My Nudist Desires

In the first installment of this series, I described the beginnings of my long and complicated relationship with nudity. Entering high school, my love/hate relationship with nudity became more complicated . . . I grew fascinated by the thought of naked men and being naked with them but also terrified at the same time. My […]

My Father Doesn’t Know Me
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My Father Doesn’t Know Me

I had a great childhood. I grew up in a Christian home with stable, loving parents who raised my brother and me to love the Lord, leading us in daily morning Bible studies. They both had somewhat difficult childhoods themselves and, as most parents do, they wanted to give their sons a better start in life than […]

Accountability Doesn’t Work
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Accountability Doesn’t Work

Growing up in the church, I learned that any problem with lust, porn, or masturbation could be alleviated with good accountability. The primary reason I remained entangled by these sexual vices was that I didn’t have enough accountability in my life. The more accountability I had, the more divine freedom would be made available to me […]